Beyond Laughing and Crying

Mixed episodes are the worst… I don’t know whether I should be jumping for joy or bawling in my pillow and everything in between, all at once. I can’t sleep. I can’t eat. I don’t feel like doing shit. I feel like killing myself over it. All I want is for it to just go away and never come back… Then roller coaster my way back up to the top of the world at the same time and I don’t know whether I should be jumping for joy or bawling in my pillow and everything in between…

I’m just remembering what it was like to have a mixed episode… It’s one of the worst set of feelings, ever. Have any of you had mixed episodes before?

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theothersid3

Thank you for visiting my site! Feel free to like, comment or subscribe to any of my content. I am a male in my mid thirties who loves to write about the mysteries of life I have encountered or think about. I was diagnosed with severe bipolar I in 2004, and I like to write about this journey to recovery in all its stages as well. Some day, I hope to tie everything together and write a couple of books related to my experiences. Thanks again for stopping by! - theothersid3

2 thoughts on “Beyond Laughing and Crying”

  1. I have mixed states during the transitions between the extremities of my mood. Currently at the end of a manic cycle, a bipolar II myself. Off medication for almost a year and learning from my experiences with this beast to live more productively by taming it.

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