Mixed episodes are the worst… I don’t know whether I should be jumping for joy or bawling in my pillow and everything in between, all at once. I can’t sleep. I can’t eat. I don’t feel like doing shit. I feel like killing myself over it. All I want is for it to just go away and never come back… Then roller coaster my way back up to the top of the world at the same time and I don’t know whether I should be jumping for joy or bawling in my pillow and everything in between…
I’m just remembering what it was like to have a mixed episode… It’s one of the worst set of feelings, ever. Have any of you had mixed episodes before?
theothersid3 
I have mixed states during the transitions between the extremities of my mood. Currently at the end of a manic cycle, a bipolar II myself. Off medication for almost a year and learning from my experiences with this beast to live more productively by taming it.
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Yeah it happened at the end of my manic cycles and while I was rapid cycling. That’s awesome you can get off meds! I will never be able to do that.
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